Day 173 – Life goes on!

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Day 173

Hello friends!  Monday night and another wonderful day.  If we could just get over this rain – I don’t think that it is ever going to stop!  We have been just plugging along trying to do as much as we can do while living life on life’s terms.  Two weeks ago I worked for Eric as normal, but as healing seems to go, after yoga that Thursday night I hit the wall and was not able to get up on Friday so Ms Kathy did not get a clean house for Mother’s Day.  She was fine with it and we piddled around the house and shop on Saturday.  Sunday we took a trip to Ft Clinch Park in Fernandina to enjoy Mother’s Day at the beach.  Albert, Jan, Will and Jessa joined us and we celebrated with lunch, shark tooth and shell hunting. The cool thing about the beach at Ft Clinch is that it is at the mouth of the St Mary’s river and with the jetties

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Happy Mother’s Day!

you can have either an ocean or sound experience depending on which side of the jetties you go. Needless to say, we had a wonderful day.  Monday I had my 6 month labs, CT and PET scan and followed that up with a customer visit, a stop at the store and our monthly wood turner meeting.  I left the house about 8:30 in the morning and we didn’t get home until about 9:45 that night.  Between a day at the beach and running around all day I had to call in dead Tuesday because I

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Test Day!

could not get out of bed again!  The not getting out of bed is not getting any prettier, I rolled out about 11:30 to eat, take my meds and get some water down.  I was back in bed by 12:30 and slept until about 5 when I got up to eat again and was back in bed by 8:30.  Wednesday I went to St Augustine to pick up a project, Gate Parkway to deliver a finished job and finally hit the shop for an hour or two to finish up a couple of wine stands for a customer and his dad.  I just just haven’t figured out how to effectively plan my days.  I try to plan for 4 to 6 hour days, but when I lose one or two days it just snowballs. It is a good thing that I am still telling my customers that it may take awhile to get their jobs finished.

We ended up the week Saturday with our bi-monthly SoMMA meeting.  This meeting we had Joyce Gabiou who shared her techniques for collage. You can see Joyce’s work by clicking here Joyce Gabiou Artist.

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Joyce Gabiou

As I was laying around Sunday recuperating it dawned on me that we began this cancer adventure a year ago this month.  We had dinner with Amy and Keoni and I started to feel puny the week after.  We went to Louisville the following week and Kat got sick on the plane and I thought that I picked it up because my lymph nodes had begun to really swell.  After a bought with pneumonia those nodes stayed around and the rest is history.  It is really hard for me to believe that it has already been a year –  diagnosed, treated and getting my 6 month post treatment check on the 30th. What a year it has been, fear, happiness, love, faith, pain, hope, reliance on self and others. My reliance on God has grown 10 fold as well as my reliance on others.  I have had to

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The Daring Duo!

learn to trust that God has a plan and have faith to do my best to accept and implement that plan with humility and grace.  I have had to learn to tell the truth when it comes to my needs and capabilities.  I have had to learn to reach out and ask for help when I need it and to fearlessly share all my feelings with you.  Tonight we share our 103rd chapter so far and I need to thank you for sharing them with me.  I could not have made it this far without you and your support.

Don

Quote of the day – Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence.

Helen Keller

Day 157 – REALLY?

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Day 157

Almost 2 weeks since I haven’t touched base – slowing down. I have been really tired and coming home to dinner and bed.  Tonight is an effort but you all show up and so can I.  It really does keep me up to have the connection.  Pull yourself together and do what you are supposed to.  It never occurred to me that this whole adventure would lead to a change in me. You get sick and expect to be right back to where you left off.  I am not so convinced that it is possible in the short term with cancer treatment.  Yeah there are the “surface changes.”  Glasses, hearing aids, saliva output down, taste diminished, hair loss, but most of those continue to improve, that aside, there are some things you start to wonder about.  My hat is off to the workers of the world.  I have a new appreciation for a lifestyle that involves regular hours and effort.  I am working Monday 10 – 2, Tuesday and Thursday 12 -4, yoga on Tuesday and Thursday, working on my projects on Wednesday and trying to keep the house clean on Friday.  Result – I am exhausted! well crap that is a lot more than I thought it was until I saw it on paper.  No wonder I’m sore and tired, but in my mind it is so slow coming back.  I am still getting an average of 10 hours of sleep a night but the weekend always has a catch-up day.

Last week while Will was in town Kat took off three days and the three of us went over to Ichnetucknee to float on Wednesday.  It was a beautiful day and nobody was over there so it was extra nice.  We got there early enough that we had the chance to go float down

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Will at Big Shoals

the river twice on Innertubes.  I bailed on the second trip to nap in the car, then Friday, after I worked Thursday, I skipped their trip to Big Shoals for a hike to stay in bed.  So those are the disappointing things and I have no reason to be disappointed.  God provided a wonderful week with Will and Kathy home and that is enough – I can’t force my way to well, and I keep getting good days.  Today the turning club had an event to attract new members and raise money for “Beads of Courage.”  WoodCraft sells the bowls as Mother’s Day presents and we turn in front of the store to drum up traffic.  My partner in crime Tina and I showed up and rocked. Turning and catching up while talking to members and customers on a gorgeous day.  A new turner in the club came by to learn how to turn bowls so Joel got one on one tutoring from Tina and I – He did an awesome job!

Last Sunday Kat took me down to an Acrylic Pour class by Jami Childers and the Art Center.  We learned some pretty awesome techniques and came home with 4 stunning pieces.  Besides if I am not doing something I am napping or sleeping…LOL

Last Saturday we took Will to the airport about 1 and were home in bed by 2, I napped until 6 and moved to the couch so I could be in bed early to take the class.  Oh, this another landmark month.  I am already at the 6 month work-up.  This month is the 2nd blood work, CT scan and PET scan, but that is later in the month.  Finally we have a visitor tonight.  Kat has been doing classes all day and a friend of ours let her daughter Maria come spend the night and have an art night and day with Kathy. Maria is 12 and they have already done ice dyed t-shirts, resin pours, dyed some wood and are currently watching videos and they just started!

And me? I’m going to bed!  A few prayers, some modified activities and I will get a second wind.  I really appreciate having you to talk to – I told you many times that I don’t always get solid information when I talk to myself and Kat gets to listen to it everyday! So goodnight and I will try to get back on schedule……we will see!

Don

 

LESSON OF THE DAY – Enough is as good as a feast.     Sir Thomas Malory

Day 144 – Worm Fest!

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Day 144

I woke up this morning not wanting to get up.  I was pissy and cranky and just not very grateful.  I was sore, tired, funky and just generally out of sorts.  It brings back memories of a childhood favorite;

Nobody likes me, everybody hates me
I think I’ll go eat worms!
Big fat juicy ones
Eensie weensy squeensy ones
See how they wiggle and squirm!

Down goes the first one, down goes the second one
Oh how they wiggle and squirm!
Up comes the first one, up comes the second one
Oh how they wiggle and squirm!

I bite off the heads, and suck out the juice
And throw the skins away!
Nobody knows how fat I grow
On worms three times a day!

Nobody likes me, everybody hates me
I think I’ll go eat worms!
Big fat juicy ones
Eensie weensy squeensy ones
See how they wiggle and squirm!

The good news is that I realized it and have made an attempt to stay out of everybody’s way.  William came home yesterday and Kat has been smoking ribs for a small party.  Jan and Albert, Uncle Mike and William’s dad David are coming over to say hi to Will.  He flew down for the week so that he could pick up his car and drive back to New York.  He brings his car south for the snowy season then takes it back north so he can explore in the spring and summer.  I got up and asked God to help me through the day by keeping my mouth shut and me on my best behavior.  I picked up sticks and limbs from the yard that came down in last Sunday’s mini storm then went to the shop to finish Albert’s Christmas present.  I made him a razor handle and stand to fit his preference of blades. It worked out pretty good because the other two have just been napping on the patio leaving me to my mood.

There is really nothing wrong or out of the ordinary I guess that it is just my “time of the month”…lol.  I have been trying to remain balanced in my activities but they just seem to pile up.  I haven’t written in over a week because I have been going to bed early trying to keep up.  I got my new glasses Friday a week ago and have been trying to wear them all the time to get used to them.  They have been an asset, but have taken a little more to get used to than the hearing aids. I did make a trip to Waycross Friday a week ago to see my friend Jerrid Roberts, AKA the Swamp Hippie 3, to pick up one of his ant hill pours.  Jerrid melts down aluminum cans  with a homemade smelter and then pours the molten aluminum into ant hills to get unbelievable sculptures.

He has a niece with cancer and is putting together a raffle consisting of artwork and asked me to do a bowl and Kat to use one of the anthills to work her magic on.  The next day Kat and I played around in the shop for awhile then got cleaned up and went to Gators Barbecue for dinner and ran by to see our in-loves Amy and Keoni for a minute to see how their hurricane reconstruction is going.  Sunday we had a fellow turner from the club, Jackie, come over to learn how to turn pens.  Monday I started a new adventure , I went to work part time.  My friend Eric Miller owns the company that I build table bases for.  He has had the good fortune of receiving a number of orders for furniture and can’t get to it all so I am working 3, 4 hour days for him, Monday, Tuesday and Thursday.  Now while that seems like a reasonable amount, it was extremely tough to get started – I have found muscles that I forgot that I had and the chemo-brain has presented some challenges.  Thursday I put 2×4 crosses on a table where the plans called for 3x3s and didn’t even realize it until Eric got back.  At least I had only done one!  But otherwise it went pretty well.  Here is a set of barn doors we did.

Wednesday I went up to Barb Hahn’s shop in Kingsland to play around with embellishment tools.  We tried so many different things that before we knew it it was 5pm!

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Embellishment 101

And Kat and I got to do something really special on Friday evening.  I have a client The Volunteers In Medicine who I make bowls for .  It is an organization that provides free healthcare to working uninsured patients.  They do this through the generosity of physicians, nurses and every type of healthcare provider who donate their time to treat these patients.  Last year there were over 200,000 hours donated. In recognition of 2,000 cumulative hours donated they award the volunteer on of my bowls.  This year I was asked to attend so that I could present the bowl. It went to Dixie Murphy, a pharmacist, who it turned out is a member of the Jacksonville Gem Society, a club that we just joined!  We also had the pleasure of sitting with one of last year’s recipients Tocca Chester who was just thrilled to meet us and learn about the bowl.  She was so interested that she is going to come out and spend a day in the shop.  It was a very humbling experience to be introduced to and thanked by people for their bowls that they treasure and appreciate.

So when I sit back and look at the last 10 days it is no wonder that I am tired, sore and a little grumpy!  We had the welcome home Will dinner and I improved a bit and am now sitting on the couch recovering.  Ribs, corn on the cob, potato salad, fresh tomatoes and fresh baked bread – my wife is awesome – and I can even taste most of it!  Earlier this week I shared with Kat and Barb that the cancer and treatment has truly changed my life.  I have hearing aids, glasses, sores that haven’t healed, I get to wear a compression wrap on my neck and head every night to bed, I am continually fatigued, have reduced saliva, brush with special toothpaste, taste is compromised and still can’t think clearly.  (Really it can be argued that I never thought clearly…LOL)  But sitting here tonight I am grateful to be alive, grateful for my experiences,  grateful for my family and friends, grateful for my faith and for my sobriety.  I keep reminding myself through my daily discussions with God that this whole adventure is for a reason and in many cases I will never know who was influenced or given hope.  I continue to pray that at least one person will benefit from my struggles and find their own relationship with a God of their understanding.  Tomorrow will be another day, but because I told some people how I felt, said some prayers and took some action today I’m pretty sure tomorrow’s going to be a better day.

Don

Lesson Of The Day – Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace, and gratitude.      Denis Waitley
 

 

Day 133 – UNCLE!

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Day 133

How did I do this everyday?  Hell, I look up and it has been a week and a half!  I do have reasons (better read excuses) – I am wiped out!  Even though I took Kat’s advice last week and laid low in preparation for the weekend there is just no “saving up” energy.  I slept in every day and kept my activity at a minimum because we were hosting Michael Mocho last weekend for the turning club.  Our club brings in professional turners once or twice a year to do a demonstration for the club and give a “hands on” demonstration for a group of 6 or 7 the next day.  Kat took off last Friday so we ran some errands and spent some time together before we met Ed and Michael at WoodCraft on Beach Blvd at 4.  We got the room and Michael set up and headed down to Safe Harbor for dinner at our favorite place.  The only glitch to us hosting is that we live about an hour away from WoodCraft and did not get home until about 9:30.  Saturday morning we headed out at 7:30 and did not return until about 9pm after dinner.  The demo ran from 9 until 4 then we cleaned up and adjourned to Monroe’s for BBQ with the club officers.  Sunday we left at 8:15 for the hands on that ran until 4:30, cleaned up, packed Michael’s tools and headed home where Kat fixed one of her amazing dinners.

The other issue for the weekend was Michael was one of my instructors when I went to turning school in Maine for 3 months in 2014 so we spent an inordinate amount of time catching up!  Kat left us sitting at the table comparing notes and telling stories on more than one night. Michael is one of the finest technical turners in the business.  His specialty is in embellishment and tool control.  Michael also does flat work, production turning and like most of us anything to generate a dollar…LOL  I was even lucky enough to score a one on one lesson with him on Monday morning before I took him off to the airport. The result is that I am so tired that I can barely walk!  Here are pictures of a box with a threaded lid and a top that Michael turned for us.

I learned a couple of things out of the weekend.  The first is that I am not well yet.  A healthy person would be tired after the weekend and it is no wonder that I have been wiped out since then.  So give in and get some rest – it will come.  The other thing that came out of the weekend was a realization that I tend to downplay my successes and abilities.  I was sharing with Michael that one of my goals was to become a good enough turner to be invited to Echo Lake and Saskatchewan for collaborative events that they hold for artists every year.  He let me know in no certain terms that I was more than accomplished enough and could do that or anything else in the turning world that I decided I wanted to do, all I need to do is let someone know!  Then while we were talking about the work that we were doing I said that I was just doing these table bases.  Well that was mistake number 2 because he reminded me that I was doing them because nobody else could and that they are incredible. The great news was that I had an appointment with Louise, my therapist, after I put Michael on the plane and got to explore these feelings.  After an hour of soul searching I realized that I have a wealth of experience and have always been able to adapt myself into new careers and relationships.  The way that I have been able to do this is by acknowledging my weaknesses and vulnerabilities and  doing everything in my power to overcome them.  I have a relationship with God and rely on His guidance and strength along with friends and family that love me to help me through the rough spots. All that I need to do is accept my successes and build on them.  With smiles on their faces, both hugged me and reminded me to quit putting myself down, continue to be grateful and celebrate the amazing life that I have.

Don

LESSON OF THE DAY -A grateful heart is a beginning of greatness. It is an expression of humility. It is a foundation for the development of such virtues as prayer, faith, courage, contentment, happiness, love, and well-being.       James E. Faust

Day 124 – UGH!

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Day 124 – Tired

Sorry I didn’t make it until tonight but I have just been wiped all week and going to bed early.  The week before just tore the wheels off the wagon, I had to get up with Kat at 6:30 3 days last week for appointments.  The other 2 days I had to get up to work on the table base for Eric and Saturday we had an outing with Jan.  Long story short I am still paying the price for pushing it 2 weeks ago.

Good news – I had my lymphedema PT twice last week and have been released to continue wearing the band and giving myself massages to continue moving the lymph from my neck area.  This will be a fairly long term exercise that will have to be endured.  I dislike wearing the compression garment, so much that Kat found it on the floor on her side of the bed Sunday morning, and I don’t even remember taking it off! But it is no worse than some of the other stuff that I have had to do so I shall trudge on.  Bad news – I had my yearly eye exam.  I don’t know if it was chemo related or not. but for the first time in 5 years my close prescription changed and I graduated to bifocals.  When Dr Russell showed me the chart with and without the distance script I was blown away – so the new glasses will be here this week.  The awesome news – The hearing aids just keep getting better!  Angela adjusted the volume up to normal and removed some high end so Sydney doesn’t sound so sharp when she shrieks. So between hearing aids, compression straps and new glasses it has been and expensive couple of weeks about $5,600.  Besides the fatigue I am doing pretty good.  Taste keeps getting better and my weight is still stable at 160 pounds.  I just have to fight the urge to push, as a matter of fact I have been put on restrictions this week by Kat.

I delivered the new table legs on Monday. As any new design goes, Eric and I had some back and forth on what we needed to do to make it work.  I ended up at Farmtastic Creations 3 days and Eric was here one day to get them right, but they are awesome!  He delivered it on Friday and we already have 2 customers looking to order their own. (If you click on the pictures it will tell you what is going on in each one)

This weekend we got up early on Saturday and picked up Jan to go to “The Maker’s Market.”  It was a craft type show that was held in a really cool venue “The Glassworks”  on Myrtle Ave.  They had about 50 vendors and food trucks and it was fun seeing what is out there.  Next we did lunch at V’s Pizza and had their chicken wings and blue cheese pizza. Both items tasted pretty damn good and really hit the spot.  We left there and headed to Eco Relics on Stockton Street.  They have the biggest collection of reclaimed crap in Jacksonville.  You can spend hours roaming the aisles never knowing what you will find, and after all that excitement we went back to Jan’s, borrowed a bed, and took a nap for an hour and a half!  If that wasn’t enough, we met Tina and her nephew Ben at Hawker’s Asian Street Fare for dinner.  We hadn’t seen Ben since last summer and it has been forever since we had seen Tina.  We ate and yakked for hours.  After dinner we strolled 5 points widow shopping and talking.  At one point Kat and Ben disappeared into a shop only to emerge with a pogo stick.  Ben picked it up pretty quick and I was on my way until I saw Tina wincing every time I tried, and after thinking about it, decided to leave the pogo stick for younger generations…it’s not like I need any new medical problems right now!

Sunday we had a visit from a new turner, Coleen.  Coleen is a member of our Turner’s club and was looking for some help with her bowls.  She and Kat worked while I slept and I took over after I got my exhausted butt out of the bed about 11.  It is so much fun to share what you know with others and you end up learning as much as you share.

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Fish Whisperer

After she left Kat worked on some fish carving and I started rebuilding the table saw.  The mechanism to change the blade angle pooped out on me while I was building that table base so I needed to get it fixed.  We finished the evening watching Jesus Christ Superstar on NBC and it would have been excellent had it not been for the hour worth of commercials.  When Andrew Loyd Webber first introduced this in the early 70’s it really struck my friends and I.  I have seen the live version at least 4 times and the movie well over 20.  It was a magic time for me. Catholic boy’s high school with “enlightened” religion classes, (We studied the rock opera Tommy in one) Jethro Tull’s Aqualung, Jesus Christ Superstar, Godspell, Joseph and The Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat started laying the foundation of the God of my understanding.  As I sat there last night I was transported to time of my life that I had largely set aside.  The friends, the thinking, the discussions and the the times, it was cool to revisit the memories.  It was also a reminder how much of a role God has played in my life and how much I have been affected, whether I realized it at the time or not.  God has been good to me and a guiding force if I  accepted His presence and let Him guide me.  I wasted so many years trying to run the show without help only to be brought to my knees as the result of untreated alcoholism.  At that point I remembered that God of my early adulthood and asked Him for help me and since that time I have been blessed with everything that I need and given a couple of adventures that I never would have guessed would teach me so much. I think that I will keep trusting and relying on Him.

Don

LESSON OF THE DAY -“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.” —Albert Einstein

Day 98 – Let’s Chat

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Day 98

Pretty decent day, a little chilly, but I made it to the shop again!  Working on Christmas presents that I haven’t been able to get to before now.  I also have a table base that Eric is chomping at the bit for me to get done, but it is labor intensive and I cannot work on it long.  Yesterday was a busy one.  I had the appointment with Dr. Moy, the ENT and his Audiologist, Angela.  Well she delivered the bad news first – 1. I need hearing aids and 2. That they are $5,200.  It is not as daunting as it seems, the insurance covers 80% and that only leaves $1,000 but they don’t file the insurance.  So we need to come up with the total to28660595_10156225959864310_3026021416681906478_n get the bill so we can file the insurance and get the money back DRAMA! But we will get it handled like we always do.  I know it sounds flippant but God always steps in when we need Him and that is why they call it faith.  Next up was Dr. Moy who was just pleased with the recent findings and the scope that he did looked great.  I will continue to see him every 3 months this year.  From there I delivered the “ball cap” job to ScoDon, hit the bank and collected the movie tickets that I won from SymPortico Realty. And the bonus was getting to visit with my sweet friend Laurel Black.  If you need a premium realtor you cannot go wrong with Laurel and her group. Here is their Facebook page take a look! SymPortico Realty  The downside to the day was not being able to get to yoga, but I get to do that Thursday.

Now for the chat, I haven’t talked much about what is going on with recovery other than the ever present tiredness.  Things are pretty good – fantastic to where we were last month, but there are some issues.  My “jack-in-the-box” skin conditions seem to have settled down to the occasional rash of pimples.  These are little red dots that look like a fire ant bites.  For those of you up north a fire ant bite is a swollen spot about as big around as a pencil eraser that is angry red and has a tiny puss spot in the middle.  These can appear quickly and can be as few as one and as many as 20.  They typically show up on my cheeks, chest, back and arms and with a treatment they go away in about a day.  They are not typically painful, unless they show up in my armpits, but it is just another curious part of recovery that no one can seem to explain. Next up is the ever present cold.  Kid’s I am freezing my butt off.  It is 71 in the house tonight and I need a blanket.  This week I have slept with the mattress heater on and my legs and arms at Dr. Moy’s office yesterday were purple.  The good news is that clothes and blankets are readily available. Next up is the tooth and gum treatments needed due to lack of saliva.  I am supposed to put a thin layer of a special toothpaste into fitted trays and wear those trays while I sleep, but I just can’t wear them.  The answer, I have to brush with the toothpaste and not rinse or drink all night.  This stuff is weird tasting  and without additional water I wake up with this goo in my mouth and throat in the morning, but with a good scrubbing and a drink it is okay.  I will wrap up with the hardest one.  My brain is not quite working right – chemo brain. For me it is the well known feeling of not being able to recall something.  You know what I mean, you’re talking to someone and you can’t think of what something is called or somebody’s name. Last Saturday Kat and I were sitting on the porch and I was trying to tell her something and it took 5 minutes for me to finish a sentence.  It shows up in my spelling and typing too.  If it wasn;t for speel check my sentences would read like this. My fingers just won’t type what I want if I am not looking at them. Another thing is remembering what I am doing.  I have tried 3 times tonight to remember to turn on the bed but to no avail.  But please, don’t get me wrong.  Like I said earlier, this stuff is just a bump in the road.  All of these annoyances will hopefully go away in time or can be remedied and they don’t hurt or affect my daily life.  It is my daily life and I am OK with it.  I feel better than I have in months.  My beard is coming back, my taste is coming back, I am getting some energy back, they are fixing my hearing and my turkey waddle – and don’t forget I am cancer free!  Modern medicine and the God of my understanding is good.  I am blessed to be living.

So with that my friends I am going to bed with a smile and joy in my heart.  Have a great couple of days and we will chat soon.

Don

LESSON OF THE DAY – “A man can no more diminish God’s glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, ‘darkness’ on the walls of his cell.”

C. S. Lewis

 

Day 68 – Not a Good One

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Day 68

Monday evening sitting in the couch watching the sun set on a gorgeous day.  I wish that I had been able to take more advantage of it but I am thankful for the temperature hike and the sunshine that came with it. Before I forget – Happy Birthday Susie Ross!  I hope your day is better than yesterday and not as good as tomorrow! We love you!  Now with that done I probably should go back to last Thursday and Friday to get you caught up.  They were great days with some promising activity.  I walked both days, practiced yoga Thursday night and got the laundry done and most of the house cleaned on Friday. But, you’ve been there with me before, Saturday decided to be the the spoiler of the week and I didn’t roll out until 1:30.  Now the problem with getting up at 1:30 is that you don’t get done with mouth-care, dressing and breakfast until 2:30. Then add a chore and a giggle or two and you have pretty much shot your day because you still have 2 meals to eat AND just because you slept all day doesn’t mean you go to bed any later.  Kathy tried to boost my spirits with the promise of a trip to Redi Arts and Eco Relics on Sunday but I got up fatigued and moved straight to the couch for a day of napping, TV and couch surfing. I just didn’t have it in me.  We had Superbowl and birthday party invites but, to be quite frank, I am freaked out by the flu scare and didn’t really have the energy to go.  I can credit Mrs Fantastic for a succulent roast pork dinner with butter beans and roasted brussel sprouts with bacon and Parmesan cheese. Quite tasty and easy on the taste buds and the Eagles for an exciting Superbowl so I really had a pretty nice day.  Not what I planned but perfect none-the-less.

Today was a total disaster.  I  finally fell asleep last night sometime after 3:30 and was up about 6:30.  I did not feel good so I got up and got dressed because Jan and Albert were dropping Finn off early this morning for their birthday trip to Louisville.  I ended up throwing up and could never go back to sleep so Finn and I laid around and ate simple food all morning together.  Feeling guilty we got up and went for a short walk followed by emptying the dishwasher, doing some tax work and hitting the couch until Kat got home.  Tomorrow will be better, or it won’t and either way I am OK with the process.

As I mentioned Wednesday, the American Cancer Society discussion board has been a God send. It has really taken a lot of the guesswork out of this  time of healing.  If nothing else it has reassured me that there is no normal in this phase of our treatment and nothing going on with me hasn’t been experienced by somebody else who can give me tips on how to deal with it.  My only complaint is the negative people who can’t seem to get over the fact that these are side effects of being cured of a potentially fatal disease.  They complain about the physicians, the treatment, the lack of definitive timelines. Sometimes to the point  that I wonder if they would not have been happier if they had gone undiagnosed. Thank goodness they are in the minority and most are as grateful as I am to be given this chance.  The only thing you do not see much of is the power of prayer and the belief in a Higher Power so my job, it seems, is to start interjecting some faith to the board.

Alright, that is my story for the day and I am sticking to it….well kinda…I am going to depart with a request for a prayer for continued acceptance and health – Thank You.

Don

LESSON OF THE DAY – “How can a society that exists on instant mashed potatoes, packaged cake mixes, frozen dinners, and instant cameras teach patience to its young?” Paul Sweeney