Day 86 – Ups and Downs

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Day 86

It’s Friday and I think that I just heard the chirp of Kathy’s car in the driveway…YEA! It has been a long day.  Thursday was incredible.  I went over to Farmtastic Creations to help my friend Eric work on some barn doors then came home and ran the vacuum and cleaned the bathrooms and felt great. I made some overdue phone calls and tied up some junk that had been hanging out there, Kat and I joked around and it was just as close to normal as I have felt in months.  Then came the morning, or more real, afternoon! Every bone in my body aches, my eyes won’t stay open and I have all the motivation of a slug. But today it is all okay. I just got up and did what I could.  That consisted of some emails, laundry and the couch.

I know that someone watching from the outside would think that it is a total hoax.  How does a guy go from normal to stop in a 24 hour period.  Hell I wonder that myself, but I am not going down that rabbit hole again.  My life is to short to waste my days, no matter how I feel, on a sick mind.  Yes depression will happen but with awareness, treatment and prayer I don’t have to let it take me to places I don’t want to go.  The committees have been dismissed and the squirrel cage has been greased – what a relief.  My thoughts this morning were “Isn’t this curious – I felt so good yesterday, so we have this all day class on Saturday you better relax and make plans for a soak before an early bedtime.”  And the simple act of being proactive rather that reactive has made today tolerable. Yes I wanted to do more, yes I wanted to feel better but because of the work I am OK and that is good enough today.

Tomorrow we have an all day class with Heather Furman. Heather is a glass artist and is going to take use on a trip through glass fusing and planets unknown.  It starts at 9:30 and runs until 5 so I better get some dinner and work my way to bed.  Don’t worry I’ll take pictures.

Don

LESSON OF THE DAY – “We would like to live as we once lived, but history will not permit it. “        John F. Kennedy

 

Author: Don

Hi my name is Don Penny I am a professional woodturner in Jacksonville, FL. I was diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic squamous cell carcinoma in 3 lymph nodes and the base of the tongue and this is my story of day to day life while fighting cancer.

One thought on “Day 86 – Ups and Downs”

  1. Hey Don,

    So glad to hear that Thursday was a great day and I’m sure that tomorrow will be another great day. It sure seems like things are on it up swing to me. Have fun in your glass class. I love green and blue!

    Hugs, Tina

    Sent from my iPad

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