Okay, okay it’s three days, not 2, but I am really having a difficult time remembering what I have been up to. Oh yes, nothing but sleep. After we went to Keoni’s and Amy’s Wednesday night I was hoping that I would be getting my wind back – Wrong answer. Thursday was another day on the couch doing laundry and Friday I had to go back to bed after getting up at 11:30 to talk to my United Health Care Nurse Advocate. It is a service provided by the Insurance company to follow my progress, make suggestions on care and help me navigate the insurance maze. So after we finished I had a quick breakfast moved back to the bedroom, turned on the bed warmer and slept until 5. William went to Tallahassee Friday to spend some time with his grandparents so Kathy and I enjoyed a quiet evening at home together. We haven’t done that in forever, it seems like, and the two of us really enjoyed watching Planet Earth and taking turns stoking the fireplace.
Kathy’s Dad Larry and his wife Dyanne came over from Ocala to eat lunch with us, then head downtown to the Hyatt. Their plan is to watch the Lighted Boat Parade and fireworks tonight downtown. They are staying at the Hyatt downtown in hopes of getting a room that overlooks the river so they won’t have to face the cold tonight. Kat fixed white bean chili for lunch for the four of us and we caught up, feasted and set by the fire until about 3 o’clock. They headed downtown and Kat and I ran out to do a little shopping to wrap up 2017. Guess what we are doing tonight? Yep, sitting on the couch, in front of the fire and watching TV – Party Animals!
This week at rest has given me some time to think and take a look at what is going on. Since all of this holiday fun I have been letting my treatment regime slack. Sleeping until noon I have been missing a meal a day. I used to get up, eat breakfast, go to treatment, come home and eat lunch, go to bed, get up for dinner and the evening. Now I get up at noon, eat lunch, afternoon activity followed dinner and evening fun. I have not been as diligent in my hydrating, moisturizing and food selection. I have been feeling pretty good and just not paying attention to what has gotten me this far. I am down to 163 pounds, so I need to get that meal back in, I seem to be more tired, maybe I could go back to getting up and taking a nap in the afternoon. OR, even better, talk to Carlene, at Shands and see what she has to say – novel idea huh? I just have to get my mind wrapped back around the fact that my body has been brutalized and I still have to take care of myself. I have only been done with treatment for 4 weeks and two of those four weeks were the worst that I had. I am just tired of feeling tired, don’t like not pulling my weight and we have been at this 10 weeks now. So, back to what always works.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
that I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
forever in the next.
LESSON OF THE DAY – “Do what you can, with what you have, where you are.” Theodore Roosevelt