A milestone day! This morning Kat and I visited Dr. Guthrie, the chemotherapy oncologist, for my first follow-up visit. As usual I started with a blood draw, and it turned out that with the exception of my white blood cell count and lymphocyte % that my blood markers are back to normal ranges. Dr. Gutherie did an exam and released me from his care. He told us that he sees no indication that we did not get this and that the follow-ups from Dr. Dagan will be plenty. I weighed in at 168 lbs much to my wife’s dismay, but the Doc didn’t seem to mind. The real test is tomorrow when I get checked by Dr. Dagan, the radiation oncologist. I have already been warned it will entail another scope through the nose, but with news like today I will let them look. I came immediately home and took an hour and a half nap because I had to be there at 9:30 and that was way before I wanted to get up. After that I cleaned up the house getting ready for William’s arrival tonight.
I send out an email to some folks in the program every morning. It is a reading from the book Alcoholics Anonymous. It started about 18 years ago and has continued ever since. I just read the book until a section strikes me and send out that section. It keeps me in the book. Today’s reading was – “Both you and the new man must walk day by day in the path of spiritual progress. If you persist, remarkable things will happen. When we look back, we realize the things that came to us when we put ourselves in God’s hands were better than anything we could have planned. Follow the dictates of a Higher Power and you will presently live in a new and wonderful world, no matter what your present circumstances.” It struck me that with your help that is exactly what has gone on during this process. God has brought me to a place that I could not have imagined. He has brought me all I need and more, just from trying to please Him. “We claim spiritual progress not spiritual perfection,” is another phase from the book that helps me along this path. The desire to please pleases God, that is all we need to progress. I am glad that my God is a forgiving nurturing God that realizes that I am human and therefore imperfect. I will keep trying how about you?
LESSON OF THE DAY – “The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be … because of all I may become I will close my eyes and leap.”
Mary Anne Radmacher