It was a pretty cool day around here! Of course I slept in until noon, but I’m okay with
that. A couple of encouraging words from Julia, Tina and Barb reassured me that this phase was just what I needed and like everything else on this ride, it would change shortly. There are such a variety of treatments and regimes that I have nothing to base a comparison of 36 radiation treatments and 6 chemotherapy treatments in 42 days on. Is that a lot or normal? – It really doesn’t matter because I am on the heal! The difference, as I see it, is that I am becoming more alert and ready to accomplish a task between naps. Kat and I took a birthday outing to Reddi Arts for some new inspiration and I was telling her that I am seeing about a 4 hour window where I have the ability to accomplish anything. But, it is just one anything and time to accomplish that does not seem to matter unless it exceeds 4 hours. That really gives me something to work with and I promise some of those days will be just for pure entertainment. Now tomorrow I’ll probably be telling you the idea was a dream, but we will see. I am also finding that food is okay no matter what it is. I just have to chew really well and hunt for the flavor essence. Some foods just are not worth fooling with yet like ice cream because it just tastes kind of oily with a hint of vanilla at this point. Oh Oh OH before I forget – giggle of the day! William send his mom a snow picture! I laughed until I cried!
For her birthday Kat took the day off and we kind of slugged around the house together. She binged on You – Tube videos of resin coloring and pouring while I played finances. We both decided after a delicious lunch of scrambled eggs, sausage and toast to take a field trip to Reddi Arts. It was a beautiful day and we only found a couple of items that
we could not live without. After we got home I gave her her birthday present – Copper Chef frying pans – Hey That Is What She Wanted! I know I grew up in a house where housewares were taboo at birthdays and Christmas and could lead to death, but my little mess thrives on them so when in Rome! Tonight she is preparing Parmesan crusted Salmon and baked potatoes, it smells really good. And now I can report that it was! Well the potato tasted like butter and the salmon was moist, Kathy said both were delicious…lol.
I am a thankful, grateful man today. I was available for my wife’s birthday, I am definitely on the mend, I belong to a tribe and God is in my life. There is still a long way to go spiritually, mentally and physically but for the first time in a long time I could see them all come together and it was good. It was incredible to be able to be receptive enough to realize it, getting up looking for the good instead of the bad. I really have nothing to complain about – yes we can all bitch, but the gratitude is outpacing the gripes by miles and miles especially when it comes to motivation. I love you all!
LESSON OF THE DAY – “There is nothing in a caterpillar that tells you it’s going to be a butterfly.” Richard Buckminster Fuller