Day 1 – A New Attitude

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Day 1

This morning I got up feeling like hell again and last night I went to sleep crying and praying.  It was sometime after I ate that I went to the computer and there were words of encouragement from Bob, Bobbie and Tina.  At that point I decided that I was way over this stage of my development and made the decision to suck it up and get better like I have done every day so far.  So I called and got myself in for hydration with Dr Guthrie’s office and measured my drinking glasses so I knew exactly what I was up against for fluid intake daily.  I haven’t had a problem so far with fluids but Kat mentioned that I looked down in my water intake so I measured out the minimum just to give me a goal. I have had some trouble eating the portions that I have over the past days so I will begin eating smaller more times a day until that returns.  When I went down to see Kelly for my fix she told me that she usually schedules radiation patients for hydration every other day after their treatment ends, but mine came on an off week due to the holidays.  She said that we see the effects of radiation for 2 weeks after the end of treatment and need the additional help. You can bet your ass I am scheduled for the next week and a half whether I need it or not!  After I got home I treated my neck and hit the couch for the rest of the day and that is the way that it is going to be until I feel better.

Why is it so hard for us to stay out of the ditch?  I have spent 6 weeks on the right course, well mostly, and when it comes to a rough spot I forget, faith, willingness, prayer and sharing and head for the depths of darkness and despair.  It is such dark and ugly place that I have no business visiting by myself.  Thank God I have been through this enough and the people close to me bring it up when they see it so I can refocus and redirect all the negative to things that I can do to make it better.  Do I feel any better?  Physically not really, but mentally it is night and day – the difference? Taking the action having a plan and sharing what is going on.  So expect boring guys – I’m in the bed or on the couch until this phase passes, and if it is like anything else I have experienced so far, it will be over before we know it.


LESSON OF THE DAY – “Come to the edge, We can’t. We’re afraid, We can’t. We will fall. Come to the edge. And they came. And he pushed them and they flew”

Guillaume Apollinaire


Author: Don

Hi my name is Don Penny I am a professional woodturner in Jacksonville, FL. I was diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic squamous cell carcinoma in 3 lymph nodes and the base of the tongue and this is my story of day to day life while fighting cancer.

3 thoughts on “Day 1 – A New Attitude”

  1. Hi cancer Guy: As children of GOD, we all go through peaks and valleys. It is “OK” to be in the valley because that is where the fertilizer is that helps us grow. We just don’t want to stay there and wallow in that fertilizer. Two things for you and Kat: 1. On Sunday evening Dec. 10, our church choir and orchestra along with the Gospel group “The Martins” are putting on “Christmas in Ocala”. Not sure if you can be in crowds or not but if you can and wish to, I promise it is going to be a great experience. I will go a step further and tell you that you are welcome to come down Sat., spend the night and we even would love for you to attend Sunday School, you might even wish to give a short testimony of what you are going through, that might encourage someone. 2. Vicki called and they would like to have our Christmas get together on Sat., Dec 23rd. Would love for the two of you to come if possible.

    Please let us know about 1. & 2. as soon as you can.

    Love and prayers



  2. Don Penny, my Brother, My Friend! I am so inspired by and proud of your strength and courage. God has you in his hands. I know that there is a plan that none of us know about and one day we will look back, or hopefully, down and know what it was and why. Please know that you are in my prayers every day.
    Peace Brother!


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