Another one of those “What a difference a day makes” kinda days. I think that it has to do with the chemo drug level coming down in my system, but I really don’t care why I’m just thankful for the day. I probably have told you that I am on the early rotation for radiation, so I am usually scheduled at 8 or 8:20. That works because I normally wake up about 5:30 and that gives me time to shower, eat, medicate and be out of the house by 7 for the hour in traffic. But the advantage is that I can come home and take a nap and be pretty good by noonish. Today was a breakthrough in dining! On a whim I thought about chicken noodle soup and chicken won ton soup. None of that fancy smansy stuff – just plain old Campbell’s. IT TASTED JUST LIKE IT WAS SUPPOSED TO! HALLELUJAH! I also tried breaking up oatmeal cookies in a glass of milk, then cake in a glass of milk. It worked! Tomorrow I am going to run by Taco Bell on the way home and pick up a bean burrito. The arsenal is building bit by bit, I just have to remember to buy one or to make 2 servings of something until I taste it. It was so gratifying to look forward to eating something. I am going to talk to Dr. Guthrie about the indigestion that I get on Friday Saturday and Sunday and if we can get a grip on that. If we can it will be much better, but if we can’t after 3 of them I know it is just temporary.
Reality played a huge part in today too. I ran into my friend who was crying last Monday that she couldn’t go on, but they fixed her with some extra fluids and today she was smiling looking forward to her last 4 treatments. We talked about food and she gave me some wisdom, hope and strength and the reassurance that although it sucks, just keep
exploring until you find the foods that you can still taste. Next Michaela, came to get me asking how my weekend was, and I told her pretty good but I started losing my beard, she replied “just a part of it, but if it makes any difference, it just looks like you trimmed it closer” Later I got to talk to my friend Jeannie who has been through breast cancer and it is just nice to talk to others who know what you are talking about. Metallic zing, 1 1/2 hour sleep blocks, losing concentration, nausea, indigestion, hair loss, and daily change. It is reassuring to see someone who has been through it and is relatively normal again…lol love ya Jeannie!
No expectations completed a wonderful day. 2 naps, did the laundry, did a little burning on the fish that Kat and I are doing for the mobile, ate and watched tv. Tonight I can do this! Especially with the help of you, my community, because without you to tell my story to, I would be lost in the depths of my own mind and a lot of us know what a dark place that can be! I love you Kathy and Jan and the rest of you that make my life so special.
LESSON OF THE DAY – One day at a time one moment at a time